2shin ff

lol idunno.. this was on my AFF acc.. for all you 2shin shippers <3 i'm so bad with paragraphing >O<

The normal procedure of taking the bus to the hospital somehow felt different that day. Dongho's footseps got softer. He felt that something was wrong.. Something doesnt feel right.. with a heavy anxious heart, he dialed Soohyun's phone.
"Sorry~ This number is unavailable now. Please try again later. Thank you."
Dongho became restless... he wanted to reach there. fast. It was still a long trip and he doesnt have enough for a cab ride. He just had to wait. Tears rolled down his cheek. "Soohyun hyung.. wait for me....."
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2 more stops.
1 more stop.
DING.
Dongho rushed to Soohyun's ward, scared. He missed him so much. The dotors passed him uncertain stares as he rushed passed them. When he got to the entrance of the ward, the door was lock. "oh no...oh no..oh no... SOOHYUN HYUNG! SOOHYUN HYUNG!! YAAAA! HYUNG!!!" he screamed as he started banging the doors.. he heard soohyun's painful moan.. Dongho didnt know what happen. "HYUNG?? HYUNG IM HERE!!" he shouted as he lead his tears flow down .. "Dongho..." he heard Soohyun called out. Just then, a few doctors and nursed rushed to Dongho and tried to calm him down. "Nurse!! What happen to my Soohyun hyung? Doctor!!! TELL ME PLEASE!!" he cried. They only looked at him with sad faces.

"How do i tell you this?" Nurse Haejin said as she caressed Dongho's arm. "Please nurse...i'm begging you." Dongho said in between tears. Nurse Haejin looked down.. she looked up to face Dongho's scared face. "Dongho... what i am gonna tell you is not good. Dongho..." "Nae?" Nurse Haejin took a deep breath."Shin Soohyun.... he's not going to make it dear.. "
"Huh?" Dongho didn't understand. "Soohyun-ssi ... he's .. dying.."

Dongho was shocked.. "I..I...I .. " just then, the doors to the ward opend. Soohyun's personal doctor appeared with a sad look. "Dongho... we tried our best... i'm so sorry..." he stuttered.
Dongho just stared at him in disbelievment... "But you promised." .. "I'm so sorry.. the cancer can't be helped.. Soohyun wants to see you now.."

Dongho stood up slowly. His legs felt like jelly. He walked past the doctor and silently cursed under his breath.. As he entered the ward, he saw his hyung sprawled on the bed with wires attaching to his body and all. "Hyung..?" Dongho sqeaked. Soohyun looked towards Dongho and smiled.. "you came?" Dongho just stared .." I..i..i ..." he stuttered as tear started forming again. "HYUNG!!!!!" he cried as he rushed to Soohyun and gave him a tight hug... "Is it true? Hyung.. is it true? Please say that its not true.. hyung!!!" he said as he burried his head in Soohyun's neck.. Soohyun sighed. "Donghoya... i'm so sorry.. i'm really sorry." "no hyung .. i'm sorry... don't leave me!! HYUNG PLEASE DONT!!!!" Dongho cried harder. Soohyun lifted Dongho's head, making him look at him. "Listen," he started as he tried to hold back his tears.. "I'll never leave you Dongho... i'll always be here.. in your heart.. " "HYUNG!!!" Soohyun put his finger on Dongho's plum lips. He brought Dongho's head closser to his and kissed him tenderly.

Dongho trembled under his touch and more tears were let out as they kissed. Soohyun pulled back and hugged Dongho tightly .. "Listen carefully... under my bed.. there's a small diary. I want you to have it. Everything you want to know is there okay? Dongho... promise me you'll take care of yourself .. and don't you dare forget me okay? If you feel all is lost, just think about me ara? I'll always be there for you... I'll never leave you Donggie... Remember this very important thing i'm going to say. I have never change my feelings towards you Shin Dongho. I love you very much. I love you more than my own life. I would risk anything just to make you happy. I love you forever. I will never stop loving you, Shin Dongho. Remember that ..okay?" Soohyun said as he smiled. Dongho replied a soft "nae". "Dongho... take good care of yourself." Dongho nodded as he hugged his hyung ... "Dongho?" .. "I love you hyung.. i love you very fucking much. I always had. Its nice to hear that you love me too~" "Dongho?"

"Nae hyung? Is there something you need?" "I just need you here... by my side right now.. " "Dongho?~" Soohyun asked the last time, his voice getting weaker and paler. "Nae?" Dongho replied in between tears.. He knows that Soohyun is leaving. "Saranghae." Soohyun smiled. "Nado saranghae, hyung~" Dongho replied with a sad smile. After hearing that, Soohyun slowly closed his eyes. His hand caressing Dongho's cheek. Dongho held the hand. The monitor started to beep.

Dongho looked at it.
There was a straight line. "HYUNG? HYUNG!!! HYUNG!! DONT GO!! I STILL NEED YOU HYUNG!!" Dongho shouted to the now lifeless Soohyun. The doctors and nursed rushed in and escorted the rebellious Dongho out. "hyung..." dongho whispered softly..
The nurse contacted the other U-KISS members. Kevin fainted when he heard the new. Eli was shocked but he felt pity for Dongho. Kibum and Xander rushed to Korea together. AJ just kept quite but he was depressed inside, to loose a brother. Hoon just kept on crying. Kiseop cried too but he cried more for poor maknae. When the group finally came together for the first time in 3 years after their disbandment they finally felt the real family in u-kiss.. the members comforted Dongho for days. Yes they were depressed about loosing Soohyun but they will do anything to make the person Soohyun loves happy. Soohyun made them promise that. Always protect Dongho. Always be there for Dongho.

Dongho didnt attend Soohyun's funeral because he was to depressed. "YA SHIN DONGHO. WE ARE ALL DEPRESSED AS WELL. YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE OKAY? AND YOU STILL DONT WANT TO ATTEND HIS FUNERAL. I WILL NOT PUT UP WITH YOUR SHITTY BEHAVIOUR. SOOHYUN WILL BE DISSAPOINTED IN YOU, DONGHO" Kibum kept complaining, trying to convince the maknae to at least bid a final farewell. The younger did not buldge. He looked up to his fumming hyung and shouted back, "ALL THIS WHILE , WHEN SOOHYUN HYUNG WAS SUFFERING. WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS THERE FOR HIM? ALWAYS BY HIS SIDE? ME. NOT YOU ME. SO JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE GOD DAMN IT!". Kibum was shocked with the maknae's behavior but gave in after being calmed down by AJ and Xander.

So on that day, Dongho curled into a ball in his room, reading Soohyun's diary page by page, tears cascading down his red cheeks. Soohyun wrote down all the things he couldnt manage to say to Dongho. The younger understand because there were things he wasn't able to say to his hyung too. After that day, life was normal for the other u-kiss members ... but they cant forget about their beloved leader, Shin Soohyun. Dongho continued his studies after he was promised by Kevin and Eli that they will support him. But everyday, Dongho will sneakily go to Soohyun's grave and bring him flowers, photos... he event slept next to his gravestone. He will always say outloud, "Hyung... i miss you so much... why did you leave me Soohyunnie hyung? Hyung.. please comeback." As he drifted off to sleep next to the grave. As months passed, Dongho's result got worse. Kevin and Eli were worried about their dongsaeng. Dongho seemed that he had not forgotten about Soohyun yet. After much nagging from the couple, Dongho still wont change.

This continued for 2 years until Soohyun's 2nd anniversary. The 7 u-kiss member excluding dongho did visited the grave. When asked by Xander where is Dongho, Kevin only replied that he felt sick and didn't want to tag along. But Kevin knew that Dongho will be visiting. He knew him too well.
As expected, Dongho went out to his hyung's grave when the sun was setting. He kneeled down to the grave and put some flowers, red roses, soohyun's favourite, a framed picture of them and a heart shaped card with Dongho's letter that resembles their eternal love. "Hyung... how are you? You must be in heaven right now because there is no way that you are going to hell. Hyung i missed you alot!! I want you to comeback hyung. I can't live without you here by my side. Its just so hard. Hyung i love you so much. Why must you leave? Out of all the people..why you hyung?" Dongho cried and passed out next to the grave.

Dongho woke up after feeling a tap on his shoulder. He opened his eyes and was shock to find Soohyun staring at him. Dongho just stared in awe at his beautiful hyung. He can't believe it~ Wasn't Soohyun dead? Is this a dream? "You know Dongho... i don't think sleeping next to a grave is comfortable." Soohyun said. No way. Dongho heard a familiar voice. Soohyun's voice. Maybe it was the wind? But Soohyun was just infront of him. "I-i-i'm dreaming" Dongho mumbled. Soohyun stepped closer. Dongho started trembling. "W-who are you?" he asked. Soohyun was shocked at the maknae's words. "DONGHO? I'M SOOHYUN!!" he replied still shocked. "No way.... you left me..this is just a dream!~" Dongho snapped as tears fell from his puffy cheeks. "Baby, I didn't leave you," Soohyun smiled. "I never did~" "YES YOU D-" Dongho was cut off as he felt a pair of lips on his own. It was so familiar... as if it was real. "Hyung.. but...how?" Soohyun smiled and caressed Dongho's cheek. "Dongho, it pains me to see you comming here everytime .. in so much hurt.. i'm really sorry.. but please baby, you got to stop. Its okay chagiyaa... i'll always be with you. I'm always with you~ Please Dongho... focus on your studies. Kevin and Eli are really worried about you. I heard Kevin voicing out his worries that day. You're hurting them Dongho.. it hurts me too~"
"But hyung... nothing has been the same without you! I MISS YOU HYUNG!" Dongho cried as he hugged Soohyun. It somehow felt.. cold.. "Dongho, everything is still the same. Its just that.. i'm not here, you see~ Dongho please, i don't want to see you like this. I miss you too~" Soohyun replied, cupping Dongho's face in his hands. Soohyun suddenly tensed up. "Dongho..." "Ok hyung .. if thats what you want~ I'll try! I miss you hyung.." "I miss you too my baby~ I gotta go~"
"HYUNG WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" Dongho cried as he tried to grab Soohyun's wrist. It was hopeless. His hands just when past through it~ Soohyun leaned down to kiss Dongho the last time. "Saranghae Dongho-ya!! " Soohyun screamed as he ran off, making a heart shape with his arms. "Nado saranghae~" Dongho replied. He lost his hyung. Again.

Dongho closed his eyes. Hoped it was a dream. When he opened them, Soohyun was not there. "i knew it..." Dongho said as he sobbed. Dongho got up, ready to leave when he felt something in his pocket. He dug into it and took the thing out.. it looked like a ring.. After closer observations.. it turned out to be a pendant. It said '2Shin' and there was a tiny heart at the side. Dongho smiled. It wasn't a dream after all. He looked up towards the setting sun. "Saranghae hyung. I will always love you"

Little did he know, Soohyun had always been watching him. Hearing him. Somewhere far from this world, Soohyun was smiling. A tear slid down his cheek. "I love you too Dongho~"